First, I just want to thank everybody who responded to my last news post where I was really struggling to find a purpose to continue making music. I've taken a break from songwriting and production since then, and I definitely feel better about the whole thing. I've spent a lot of my time the past two weeks focusing on making videos instead.
By the way, I figured I'd ask - from 0:34 to 0:46, for me I noticed that everything gets brighter for a frame after the cut, then goes back to normal. Do any of you see this? It's fine on all platforms except my desktop for me, which is pretty bizarre.
I've been focusing on not being so much of a perfectionist. It's been a struggle, since it places me in a position where I have to choose whether or not Iisten to others' feedback, or my own personal artistic judgement. Perfectionism has always been one of my biggest burdens. I feel like I'm getting better at dealing with that.
I've been trying to be a more positive person lately. For a long time, I couldn't believe that I could rise up to whatever challenge I was facing. I'd panic, I'd worry. "I don't see how this could be resolved," I'd think to myself, over and over. It was difficult to break the cycle because it was what I was used to. When I learned to zoom out and look at the bigger picture, it became easier to spot toxic thought patterns. I talked to God and it filled the destructive void of self-doubt that was crippling me. I stopped letting fear or embarrassment have such a chokehold on me. I feel freer now.
Went to prom. Nice photo-op, but pretty lousy experience. Not sure what I was expecting really - I had a great time 2 years ago, though things have changed. There was something uniquely depressing about seeing everyone so mobile while I still had to slowly get around with a huge walker. When all's said and done, it's still an experience though. Got some of the new faces smirkin' at me, but that's alright.
I love you all, I love this community and how supportive and talented it is. Thanks for reading!
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OatmealPecheneg
I glad to see that you're not give in. Sometimes we all have bad times. I already managed to visit the "other" side. After that I realized how important to cach every moment of life and to keep mind open.
MistyE
Absolutely. Time is short, gotta make the most out of it