Syrupmasterz 2018-04-14 01:56:14

Glad your treatments are going well and almost over. :)

Hey man, we all have moments of 'Why?', seems to come with being an artist. :P
Basically with me, I just try to remember the end goal of a cartoon. It'll be something I can show people and hopefully make them laugh. I have practically no audience, but when I show it to someone who asked what I've been up to and see their reaction; it's all worth it.

That said, even if I knew that nobody was going to watch it I'd still make cartoons anyways as it's a fun way to test my skills and improve. I'm bringing cartoon folk to life!

I'll complain in my head about something taking forever while I work on it, but when it's done it's all 'Hey, this isn't half bad.'

My advice if you're not quite feeling it is to join a collab or enter a contest.
Restrictions or a theme to follow will get your brain thinking in ways you normally wouldn't, even sometimes a little bit of pressure can add a tiny bit of extra fun.

That said, hope all goes well for you and you can find that spark again. :)

Cyberdevil 2018-04-14 04:49:52

Regarding the reason for creating, recently read this maybe relevant post: https://gildedguy.newgrounds.com/news/post/1007578

...I'm not sure I agree entirely with his assessment, but there does seem to be some truth to it. When I'm making music it might be I'm really trying to prove something to myself. To further myself via the intentions I evoke in that which I write. To... I don't know really. Self-expression seems like a shallow reason.

As for reaching great game and fortune: how about features? Collaborating with other artists. It seems to be one common, and working, way to start garnering an audience, when you get involved with other fanbases than your own. Otherwise it definitely seems like a steady grind. Just keep improving, growing; going; getting better and bigger each step of the way! So they say....

Stay strong; good luck!

cacodayum 2018-04-14 16:16:40

Hey man, I have a quitter-type suggestion here... the music? If it's causing you trouble, fuck it.
There's endless hobbies out there and they don't always involve something that falls into "art".
I've found that collecting music, listening to music...being kind of a music archaeologist is more
interesting for me than actually trying to make any myself. Maybe it's not the kind of hobby all
your pals are gonna want to come check out, but it's something that makes you happy. So yeah.

One of my main hobbies is tinkering with electronics and old PCs n such. It ain't music, it ain't fine art...but it's a heck of a lot more fun than the struggles I had trying to animate or draw comics just
because those are cool things to do. Sometimes we simply find that the arts are not in our path.
If you really don't enjoy doing it, take a break, try other things. Oh and remember, burn-out is real.

VicariousE 2018-04-15 04:35:44

I'll dump some links here.. the concept is assigning a note to the spaces of time between heart beats. The reality is, we experience things in life, stories, some long ones, some in an instant, but there's a progression there, of emotions. Telling a story through instrumentals alone is difficult, but genuinely from the heart, and should not be a burden, more an exercise in storytelling.

https://www.forbes.com/sites/natalierobehmed/2013/08/27/an-app-that-makes-music-from-your-heartbeat/#ac640c42eb9b
https://online.liverpooluniversitypress.co.uk/doi/abs/10.3828/msmi.2.1.2
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/innovation/turning-irregular-heartbeats-music-180964991/

Cyberdevil 2018-04-15 08:06:02

Maybe all that chemo is just messing with the energy required for that drive? Or maybe it fades as you grow older... I definitely feel like I had more to prove in the past. Seems easy now to accept things as they are, instead of striving to make them better, and that's one major inhibition on the road of ambition too.

Hmm seems almost like might not have attained the ultimate clarity regarding his own aspirations just yet. :) Indeed the notions of proving something to yourself, with the insecurities gained from others proving themselves first, and despite that, that others love people proving something to the world... a bit conflicting. Seems almost like he's gaining drive as he writes though; rising above his insecurities in the process... if those quoted bits were in order.

Yeah I think I'll be following his blog a bit more. Was impressed by the clarity of the writing in particular, like it's pushing me to become a better writer too; prove that I really can master that craft. XD

For sure; thanks for the follow!

ADR3-N 2018-04-20 12:36:56

The best advice I can give is to talk to people. Strike up little friendships. Respond to reviews, etc. You already seem to be doing a lot of that, but that and a little social media consistency will do you more good than whatever wack shit the so-called gurus are trotting out. Also, provide something valuable. That could be simple making of videos where you show in-progress work, mixing, song-writing tips -- whatever. Bottom line, people love value and engagement.

Also, regarding the lack of satisfaction and tedium, I can relate. @RealFaction also wrote a good bit of the same in his recent autobiography. It's more a symptom of depression than anything; the same happens to ball players in the NFL, NBA, MLB, etc., that climbing to the top of the mountain only to find there's nothing there, feeling. I feel like that some days -- that, or bored.

Master-Awesome 2018-04-26 13:10:54

Still on NG I see. Keep up the good work.

ADR3-N 2018-04-28 23:32:42

@MistyEntertainment, hey, dw. We all have been there. Sometimes we focus so much on our content we forget that building a fanbase is all about rapport. It's also worth noting people really like music blogs today. See examples like Adam Neely and Ben Levin. Everyone gets together and does interviews, talks about gigs and their projects, etc. I'm a terrible example, myself, but that's just because I'm lazy. Don't be like me, lol.

Also, have you been feeling any better?

ADR3-N 2018-04-29 00:48:00

@MistyEntertainment Definitely. And I'm glad. I disappeared for a while when my computer exploded, so I'm just now getting back into the swing of things. Have you got anything in the past 2 months you'd like a review on?

ADR3-N 2018-04-29 03:17:34

@MistyEntertainment Wicked cool yo. I'll open those in new tabs and check em before I head out for a job interview in the morning. :)